Showing your true colors

Well, you are showing your true colors now.
You are letting people know how big of a whore you really are.
You are looking for whatever attention you can get.
But, in the end it will all just be negative.
You have shown your family the truth.
Who will continue to stand by you?
Your whore'ish ways have become who you are.

Reality Check

Why do I always need a reality check?
I guess I got one today.
My good mood has gone down the drain.
My heart has been smashed once again to my own dismay.
I know that things aren't right.
People are just playing games.
Today I got my reality check.

To you both. *language*

I wanted to write you both to let you know, that life is so much better without you.
You have become my idea of what not to be.
The hate that I have for you stems from the heart.
Both of you look like sick little freaks.
Who would want to do what you are doing?
When the day comes where we are face to face, watch yourself because I may just let out the truth.
You both hide what everyone can see.
Just wait till it ALL COMES OUT!
Don't think I don't know.
Don't think I am naive.
The day WILL COME where I confront you both.
Are you ready for that?
Are you prepared?
My blood will boil.
My hands will burn.
But, what I have to say WILL BE HEARD!
You thought I would be OK with it all.
You thought I was stupid for far to long.
Well, my little fake fucks the time has come to face the facts.
I am not who you thought I was. 
I have become something better.
Something more then what you will ever be.
You make me sick and one day when that face to face comes....
You will regret everything you have done.
Till then, I will let you stew in your own misery. 

One day...

One day you will learn.
One day you will see what you have done.
Until that day go ahead and play your little games.
You have no idea what is to come.
I sit here and wait.
Until the day you have to face your faith.
I have come to realize you are not the one I hate.
I hate myself for allowing you to do what you have done to me.
Allowing myself to fall.
But, one day karma will hit you for everything you have done.
You have avoided her far to long.
I shall sit here and wait for that day to come.
And when it does I hope it blows your mind.
You have become something I hate.
Someone I hate.
One day...hasn't come soon enough.

Whoa.

I sit back now and reflect on the things that have just happened.
I can't believe the weekend is at an end.
Whoa, a lot has happened.
My life has changed.
For the better or worse? 
I do not know.
So many things have happened in a short time.
Trying to figure out who is who.
Whoa, what a weekend.
Many things have flipped and flopped.
I had to push myself and open up.
Just so much has become a wirl wind of crazy.
Hopefully, soon enough the whoa will be gone and life will be back on track.

Long road ahead....

There is a long road ahead of me.
Not sure which way to go.
So many different places to go, so many different directions to turn.
I know that some may be dangerous.
I know that I might get scared.
I will find my way.
There is a long road ahead of me and I am not turning back.

LONG Time Friend

You have been a friend for so many years.
You piss me off like no other.
But, that is because you only tell me the truth.
I hate when you are right.
But, I hate it even more that I am wrong.
You will fight for me like no other.
Protect me when I am down.
I know you see me being stupid.
Standing around lost in confusion.
But, I wanted to let you know that everything you say I hear.
That I take everything you tell me to heart.
You have made me become a stronger person.
Made me stand up for myself when I never thought I could.
I think because we have known each other so long that I don't get pissed off for to long.
(LOL)
You are one of my best friends, you know.
And I don't think I could ask for anyone better by my side.
So, to you, my friend, thank you for always being there.
Thank you for always listening and always caring.
I will love you forever for everything you have done and said.
You are the best friend a girl could have.

To You

We may not have known each other for many years.
But, I want you to know you are one of my dearest friends.
You have helped me see a light I never saw before.
You have pushed me to become something more.
You have stood up for me when I could no longer stand.
Helped me fight of demons I could not fight alone.
And for all of this I thank you. 
You have been truly a great friend.
Even though we both keep changing.
(And adding tattoos to the collection)
We still remain friends.
We still understand one another.
You have made me laugh.
You have made me cry.
There aren't many people who can make me smile when I am down.
But, you...you can.
You do beautiful things.
I can tell you have passion.
There are so many adventures you want to take.
You tell me about the life you want to have.
I smile because I know you will make it all come true.
You are a great, beautiful person.
Please don't think any different.
So, what I want to say is thank you for being one of my dearest friends.

My Past....

My past is full of lies, hate, cruel intentions.
Yes, I will admit I am not the best person.
But, I have changed my ways.
Seen the light, some would say.
I am not the same person a lot of people use to know.
I have had to grow, blossom.
Some may think that I am still the same.
But, the outside hasn't changed.
The inside has.
My heart has grown bigger.
My view on the world wider.
I can't believe the things I have seen and done.
The places I have been.
The people I have known.
My past is no secret. 
Well, maybe some of it.
But, it makes me who I am today.
I can no longer be that weak little girl.
Can no longer be that child left behind.
I have to stand up and say my peace.
My past is my past.
It shall forever remain that.
For today, I look towards the future with a smiling face.

Memories

The memories we created were great.
But, now it is time to let them go.
What we had is now gone.
Broken into a million pieces.
We are lucky to have a friendship.
There is almost nothing left.
We have gone around in circles.
Nothing I seem to do is right.
Nothing you seem to do is right.
Maybe the time has come to back away.
I just have to remember to NOT look into your eyes.
Because then all those memories with flood back into me.
Causing me pain.
Those memories need to be pushed away.
So, many things left unsaid but in the end there is nothing to say.

Just my friend.

So, I have come to realize something....

Even if you love someone with all your heart, sometimes you have to let them go.
So, this is me letting you go. I will love you as a friend. Nothing more. I have to break that tie.
Break the bond that we once had.
I have made up my mind, now no turning back.
My heart is broken and torn to shreds.
You talk to me like I am someone else.
My love for you can't be more then friends.
I will be ok. 
When you realize that my heart is no longer with you, you will see me for who I really am.
You will see.  
Just wait. 
You just lost a great thing.
Maybe when I am gone you will realize it.
So, for now...you are just my friend.
 

Got it.

I haven't always been the person you wanted me to be.
Done some things that you haven't liked.
Stuck up for things that you did not believe in.
We faught with one another like no one ever has.
You never laid a hand on me.
You just took me down with your words.
Like a slap in the face.
I don't know you anymore.
I got it.
I just can't handle being treated like the fool.
While you walk around with your head held high.
Stayed by you through thick and thin.
Through the pain and tears.
Through the great moments we have shared.
I got it.
Maybe I am not good enough for you.
I got it now.